Written on 11.09.2011 ( forgot to publish)

You think language is as important as silence?? this topic came from no where when I was having a casual chat with my colleague over cup of coffee. He asked me is it necessary that if two people are sitting, they must talk. They should talk of anything, but they must. Just to break the silence. 

Written on 10.07.2012 ( forgot to publish)

कुछ नयापन लाओ. न जाने क्यों दरिया जैसे सरकते रहते हो, (context: being an oldest, longest ruling party without radical ideas)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… ज़रा तूफ़ान के जैसे उछलो, गरजो, आँखें दिखाओ। 

(context: radical, aggressive opposition party)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… न जाने क्यों अँधेरे  हालात में दिल जलाते हो, 

(context: MMS hurt over 2G, coalition-dharma)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… ज़रा नए सूरज से काजल चुराओ, आखें चमकाओ। 

(context: whistle blowers of 2G, coal-gate)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… न जाने क्यों बुढ़िया की गठरी में दो सिक्कों जैसे छुपते हो, 

(context: inability of Rahul Gandhi)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… ज़रा सोने- चांदी की गिन्नी खनकाओ। 

(context: ability to keep business houses in pocket) 

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… न जाने क्यों शराफत की चादर लपेटे हो, 

(context: sonia gandhi's complaint of below the belt attacks)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… कुछ  बड़ी, नयी, शातिर तरकीब दिखलाओ।  

(context: rigged voting machines and parliament boycotts)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… जैसे हो उतना बने रहने में क्या है? 

(context: no relief to poor. roti, kapadaa, makaan)

कुछ नयापन लाओ.… ज़रा कायदे की हदें पार करो, रॉबिनहुड बन जाओ।  

(context: my way or highway)

Are we coward?? Not really!!

Most of us fear from some or the other thing. There is a special word for it "phobia" which generally means fear of something. This fear can be of anything or anybody. It might be from lizards, skin rashes, heights or closed spaces. But we all share one common fear that is "fear of death". The thought of death makes us sad and brings a feeling of failure. Failure of not being able to do things which we had planned. Fear that grabs each one of us when we step out of our homes, when something or other happens. We might not be able to say something to someone that we longed to. Because with death the hope of tomorrow dies. The hope that we might overcome our regrets, might mend our relationships, might prove ourselves as strong individuals, might live happier moments than we did. 

No! Am not going to preach: "live as if you are to die tomorrow",  rather I question why we fear death or what is it that makes it so special that everyone has fear of it, every living person. If we are capable of leaping onto Moon, if we are capable of touch limitless boundaries than how can we be scared of death? 

I think we don't fear death rather we fear the time when it happens. All of us live Life in fear of the moment of death, because no one knows when it comes. There is no rule, no law, no equation, no certainity. Our fear is for that very moment when we are completely unprepared and vulnerable. You may say that people who suffer from some chronic ailment know when they will die. I think, they still fear about the uncertainty of it.  In older times Sages used to predict their own death. Months before they die they finish all their unfinished business so that they are prepared for that one moment. Those sages never feared death rather they embraced it right on its face no matter how harsh it was. 

So, our biggest fear is not death but the uncertainty attached to it. Humans have power to push their limits, to go beyond the unapproached, unexplored. Then can we be so coward to have fear of death? Not really! our greatest and biggest fear is the not exactly the "death"  itself, but the "uncertainty" attached with it.

Written on 15.07.2011 ( forgot to publish)

I am having wonderful time at home, I try to meet as many friends as I can. Went to a friend's marriage in Bhubaneswar. Traditions were different from what I have seen. Truth is,  I haven't attended any marriage since long time. So I dont really know how exactly marriages take place in northern India.
My trip to Bangalore was good, I visited my friends, but importantly it was to see my first pet, a goldfish. It was a little, tiny goldfish, but for me she was my inner strength. She gave me confidence that I can take care of others and of myself. She was my companion, she used to listen carefully each and every word I told her. Yet she never disclosed any secret to anyone.  She was with one of my friend in Bangalore, but died two days before I reached Bangalore. I felt very sad, but I have no regrets of leaving my fish to a friend's place. I am sure she must have taken care of my baby, as much as she could.

I am not sure if you ever had a pet in your life, but I can assure you that it is a wonderful experience. Its just like taking care of your own baby. The bonding that you have with your pet is kind of a lifeline to you and to your pet. My pet was special to me for two reasons. First she was a fish and I love fishes (but not in my plate). Second, she was a christmas present for me. The best gift I have got till date.

We cannot hold anything in life. Forget about materialistic things, we can't even hold back memories. They fade with time, just like scars......