Oxymoron

Right now, am in office.  Although I have a lot of work to do, I  do not feel like working. This thought has been floating in my mind since last night. Since, I was too tired to take it out last night, I am doing this right now. Perfect timing!!! ;)

Is it possible that the happiest moment of your life is actually the most regretful moment? When you are sad, it tickles you, makes you feel wonderful, but when you are happy, it makes you sad. Don't know why, but these days I am  experiencing the same thing. Thinking about somethings makes me both happy and sad at the same time.

I feel each one of us live our life on many plains or levels. Sometimes we define ourselves for what we WANT to be, other times we do things for what we actually ARE, and some other times we act, how we are supposed to or SHOULD act. If there is a conflict between them, then its a big trouble. You will never know, who exactly you are. 

Somebody said this to me once that Humans cannot live a Binary life. Jumping from 0 to 1. Switching from ON to OFF state. Shifting from attached to detached state. There is always a swift transition. So why can't we gently slide from one level of existence to other? why there has to be jerky transitions in form of pain and regret?? Isn't life's all about striking balance & smoothness??

I guess, I just have to convince my Heart not to battle against Mind, Mind you, Mind is always right!!! The most logical, practical, pragmatic, realistic, factual, seasoned, sensible and ofcourse, hard-nosed is THE MIND.......

Still...Emotions bhi kitne stupid hote hain, logic hi nahi samjhtey!!!! (emotions are dumb, they dont understand logic)

Stillness

Silence screams,

Precious lost.

Void asks,

Heart is numb, mind is dumb.

And eyes?? they are fool

just pouring…..

Prayer

I didn't want to write anything sad here, but I couldn't stop myself. I logged in and out of blog for 5 times in an hour, thinking about writing this or not.

These days I am come back home, late in the evening around 9 pm. Since last 2 weeks, I have noticed a guy waiting for someone at one of the train stations. He always has toothless smile and a rose bud in his hand. Dont know for whom he waits for. He looks at each train that stops by, his eyes scan each compartment in a hope that someone will get off. As the train leaves the station, his smile withers away, like the flower in his hand.

That very moment, I feel very lonely.

For last 3 days, I noticed another guy, carrying a huge bag pack, as if he has his home on his back. Dressed shabbily in torn clothes with shower caps as his shoes. I felt so ashamed, that I complained of winters.

God, I always complain to you for not giving me what I want. This makes me realize, I need contentment more than anything, give me that. Give me strength, so that in future I dont just shed tear, but do something to bring change in their lives.

Love you.

Basics of Lyrics

On the way back home from office, I was listening to this song, "Adhoore tum, adhoore hum, bin tumhare" from the movie "break ke baad".

There were these lyrics somewhere in the song "Woh raat ki chupi mein, shor natkhat chor de". Either writer is trying to explain his snoring problem or may be unknowingly the air pollution he makes while sleeping :P

Angle naya hai, mujhe lagta hai humein ise aur discuss karna chahiye :P