Stillness

Silence screams,

Precious lost.

Void asks,

Heart is numb, mind is dumb.

And eyes?? they are fool

just pouring…..

Prayer

I didn't want to write anything sad here, but I couldn't stop myself. I logged in and out of blog for 5 times in an hour, thinking about writing this or not.

These days I am come back home, late in the evening around 9 pm. Since last 2 weeks, I have noticed a guy waiting for someone at one of the train stations. He always has toothless smile and a rose bud in his hand. Dont know for whom he waits for. He looks at each train that stops by, his eyes scan each compartment in a hope that someone will get off. As the train leaves the station, his smile withers away, like the flower in his hand.

That very moment, I feel very lonely.

For last 3 days, I noticed another guy, carrying a huge bag pack, as if he has his home on his back. Dressed shabbily in torn clothes with shower caps as his shoes. I felt so ashamed, that I complained of winters.

God, I always complain to you for not giving me what I want. This makes me realize, I need contentment more than anything, give me that. Give me strength, so that in future I dont just shed tear, but do something to bring change in their lives.

Love you.

Basics of Lyrics

On the way back home from office, I was listening to this song, "Adhoore tum, adhoore hum, bin tumhare" from the movie "break ke baad".

There were these lyrics somewhere in the song "Woh raat ki chupi mein, shor natkhat chor de". Either writer is trying to explain his snoring problem or may be unknowingly the air pollution he makes while sleeping :P

Angle naya hai, mujhe lagta hai humein ise aur discuss karna chahiye :P

(S)M(ile)-stone!!

Sorry, guys, for being absent from the garden. I was a little busy. Oh yeah!! Am a busy gal these days. :P I had a meeting near Amsterdam, Netherlands. Day was good and meeting was successful.  Now aftermath of meeting is the loads of work to be done. :(

I am sitting in flight writing this and feeling quite good. I gave a presentation on the agenda and the structure of the document, we would be working on.  I am on ninth cloud, and why should I not?? say say? tell tell? Not a big deal, but still I am happy.

I didn't know that small progress like these would boost my confidence. I am still far far away from my goal, but I am happy I am walking. Even if these are baby steps, never mind every baby grows. So will I :D

My boss said he was quite satisfied the way meeting went and we should be able to plan for next task. He was in a good mood. So, I thought I should take advantage of this and asked him for holiday. Approved!!! yippyyyyyyyy :D 

I was talking to my colleague who was with me along with my boss on this trip and he gave me insight that I should give a little more try. I should focus more on my PhD topic. These things are definitely value adding, but still they will not lead to my technical knowledge. Its like a whirlpool that I should be aware of. So, I need to be a little more active towards my phd work.

While I was in the meeting, I was feeling sleepy, was trying my level best to keep myself awake. When I am too sleepy, two things that I can never hide, rather three, are suddenly I get running nose. My eyes and nose would leak like theres is waterfall inside them. I have an embarrassing habit of snoring (thanks to sinusitis). Whenever, I get sleepy, I snore. You can imagine how awkward it would get if I snore in the meeting. Third reason is rather a bit cute an it reminds me of my Mom :P

I clearly remember, when my Dad and sister used to have some sort of serious discussion, and when my Mom tries to participate in the discussion, the scene is worth watching. If discussion were too technical, my Mom would be easily bored and looses interest. She would get sleepy but to keep up with the discussion, she would try to keep herself awake. At this moment, her expression would be, as if a grave problem is being discussed. Issue might not be as severe as expressions on my Moms face. For last 2-3 times I realized, I was doing the same thing. ;P

They say LIKE FATHER, LIKE SON, I guess in my case it should be LIKE MOTHER, LIKE DAUGHTER" ;)

Song of the moment -

Rehna tu hai jaisa tu, thora sa dard tu thora sukun, deema deem jhonka ya phir joonun....