Written on 26.06.2016, forgot to publish here.....
Right now, there is a lot going on and there a lot to deal with in my Life. The positive thing in this situation is that things are happening at such a lightening speed that I have not time to reminiscent or regret about past. Flip side is that its taking a toll on my emotions. But as they say, good or bad, be thankful to God that Life is moving.
I had been dealing with a lot of emotions lately. The situation has been that one of my fellow human being, call him ABS is facing a life threatening situation. I have utmost respect for him and he is the person I want in my Life. After a lot of churning in my mind, I finally realized that there is a reason why we meet some special people in our lives, simply because they help us becoming a better person. They have such a positive impact on our personalities, that we are changed forever. Thats the way ABS has been to me.
He is suffering from cancer since quite a long time. All these years I could see him fighting, battling, struggling against this disease. An amazing human being, who totally doesn't deserve such misfortune in his Life.
When I cannot meet him at workplace, I get stress attacks. All sort of tragic and worse situations flash in my mind. But then, I realize we all are dealing with uncertainty. Uncertainty of living this precious gift of God, Life. I tried to reason with myself that may be I am most afraid of loosing him and not able to see him or talk to him forever. So I tried to have more interactions with him. Not wasting any single day, I find one or the other way to have conversations with him (not necessarily deep ones, remember we are co-workers).
As time is passing, my fears are growing. With grown interactions, I have realized that there is so much to learn from him and there is not enough time. Knowing more about him has made me more scared of loosing him.
I am confused about my own feelings, but surely there is a tremendous sense of attachment with him. As of now, I don't know how to deal with these feelings. So writing them down here. Just leaving open ended thread of my feelings. I hope they don't get entangled. May be some day, when I will revisit these pages, I hope I will be able to see what fabric these emotions have created.
Till then keep hanging and have faith.............
Right now, there is a lot going on and there a lot to deal with in my Life. The positive thing in this situation is that things are happening at such a lightening speed that I have not time to reminiscent or regret about past. Flip side is that its taking a toll on my emotions. But as they say, good or bad, be thankful to God that Life is moving.
I had been dealing with a lot of emotions lately. The situation has been that one of my fellow human being, call him ABS is facing a life threatening situation. I have utmost respect for him and he is the person I want in my Life. After a lot of churning in my mind, I finally realized that there is a reason why we meet some special people in our lives, simply because they help us becoming a better person. They have such a positive impact on our personalities, that we are changed forever. Thats the way ABS has been to me.
He is suffering from cancer since quite a long time. All these years I could see him fighting, battling, struggling against this disease. An amazing human being, who totally doesn't deserve such misfortune in his Life.
When I cannot meet him at workplace, I get stress attacks. All sort of tragic and worse situations flash in my mind. But then, I realize we all are dealing with uncertainty. Uncertainty of living this precious gift of God, Life. I tried to reason with myself that may be I am most afraid of loosing him and not able to see him or talk to him forever. So I tried to have more interactions with him. Not wasting any single day, I find one or the other way to have conversations with him (not necessarily deep ones, remember we are co-workers).
As time is passing, my fears are growing. With grown interactions, I have realized that there is so much to learn from him and there is not enough time. Knowing more about him has made me more scared of loosing him.
I am confused about my own feelings, but surely there is a tremendous sense of attachment with him. As of now, I don't know how to deal with these feelings. So writing them down here. Just leaving open ended thread of my feelings. I hope they don't get entangled. May be some day, when I will revisit these pages, I hope I will be able to see what fabric these emotions have created.
Till then keep hanging and have faith.............
